i was really feeling god damn miserable today. Sorry God, i used you to fit into my lousy english(:
sister knew bout the 'surprise' Khim and i planned for her.
we wrapped it up so well. including all her friends. everyone put up a very good act but that stupid girl is simply way too tough to deceive. &^*#!&*& SHIT YOU! TANWEIYING!! :D
in the end, she used her tears and BEGGED me to tell her everything truthfully -.-
i didnt lie, and i knew there was no way i could lie and hide bout it anymore. OMG! WHY AM I WRITING IN A BLOG AS THOUGH IM WRITING A COMPO!??okay, back to topic.
yar, and then she asked me why the hell i got all her friends over, in her crying tone.
i swear i really wanted to surprise her only. she's been complaining that she havent seen her secondary schoolmates for a long long while.ESPECIALLY TESSA.haha.and she misses her ite classmates. so i invited them all over lo. i felt guilty and dumb. guilty, i made my sister cried instead of making her surprised and overjoyed.dumb, i never think on my sister's part, insisted on doing my own way. but i meant well ): at last, Mom took over the phonecall. my turn to cry.Mom was sandwiched -.-
at that point of time, i really really hope yh was beside me.
i blamed myself. for doing all these extra shits, causing all the miseriesssssssss.
really hoped for someone to comfort me at that point in time ): damn upset uh! heart almost sadden to death!
and than (CLIMAX, CLIMAX), msged that yh for like god damn many times, no reply at all. called him, picked up. wanted to meet initially, because we havent met each other for fucking 6 days! than, somehow, i dont want him to travel this far, so i called it off. and i know he's lazy. i feel the same sometimes when i go panjang. who ask us. stay so far.
argued a lil, hung up the phone. than i sent him an awful text. ignored that bitch, went vivo by myself(:
damn, on my way to vivo, i almost, ALMOST broke down; at the thought of all the sway-ness that happened, and imagined how yh would use his means to apologise to me.haha, dono why, i'll feel like crying even more. Pervert tanweicheng!! you know lahhhhh. whether or not are girls at fault, we'd still pray wholeheartedly to our dear lord buddha to hope and wish that that bitchy fella would give in first :D
heng i controlled my tears well. didnt disgrace myself in public!
whats more impt.: ive got mascara on. later cry too much, no matter how water-proof it is, smudge, i /gg. somehow, Khim was around there. so she came over to vivo to keep me company.
Loved her companion. cos i get to listen to stories! and she was there, giving me advices on my relationship. Thanks dudette. Much appreciated yo!
at last, we went home. END OF STORY. lazy to type ((((:
oh, anyway, sister agreed to let us proceed! and, she thanked Khim and me for all these.gave me a hug i felt disgusting. hahahah!
oh fyi, yh and i are considered back to normal?? or should i play the "hard-to-pacify"???? add spice in the relationship lah. so that that guy might adore me more. MIGHT :D haha
