When Dad asked me to have supper earlier on, i really wanted to apologise sincerely. but i didnt. i really couldnt control myself then. i just wept non stop, incessantly.
i felt really remorseful for reaching home late last night without informing anyone as my phone went dead on battery :/ i should have borrowed and called.
and eventhough i was with Bryan and all, i worried so much that YH might not be able to find me, he'll get anxious.
to think that my family members are the ones who thought i'd met with a mishap.
i turned on my phone, there was only a message from YH, telling me about his dinner.
How would i have felt man. Family is more important than bf eh? OBVIOUSLY. and i only worried for him, awfully neglecting my parents and sister. WTF.
i'm a sinner!
we, have finally decided to close our chapter.
he couldnt take me, the fact that i always hang around with guys. he blew up.
it was solely my fault for being bitchy and only hang around with guys since secondary school, i know. i am such a kind of bitch whom i have little girl friends around alright?
he said i'm always controlling him, mentally.
whenever things go wrong, i'd cry and create a ruckus when it's my fault. and then, he'll just gotta swallow all things and bear with it.
Yea, you're right. i guess i'm really that sort of a person.
To let him off living all well and easy, i finally decided to let him off, off for good.and i'm really determined this time round. there'll be no more of such nonsense-bearing shitsssss.
the only thing that really turned me off literally is that we broke off just 6 days before my 20th birthday. wtf.
i was really anticipating to celebrate with him. but, fuck it lah.
life still goes on. just be strong, believe in being strong and i will pass the days off smoothly and well.
i know i can! Hwaighting! :D
To recall, wtf leh, really. i cried till it's like the end of the whole just now! cried as though i just fell, hit my knees on the ground, swayly with a rusty pin sticking out for no reason, poke right deeply into the bones. wailing and wailing non stop. it was really stupid. however, i felt better! hahaha. but seriously, WHY THE FUCK DID I MADE SO MUCH NOISE WHEN CRYING?! "Attention seeking!" Younghwan would say.
i dont mind being friends with you,dude.
and damn! you gotta return me my toy asap! tomorrow will be the best day! before i'll start being all rough with you, using the real boyish v.s. man language, you punk!
